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Excerpted from Look for the Good and You'll Find God by Echo Bodine. Copyright © 2008 by Echo Bodine. Excerpted by permission of New World Library.  All rights reserved. No part of this excerpt may be reproduced or reprinted without permission in writing from the publisher. HTML and web pages copyright © by SpiritSite.com.

"Feelings, our emotional responses, are not the same as intuition."

  Echo Bodine
Look for the Good and You'll Find God

Part 3

Even though my minister was very clear about intuition being the voice of God, I wrestled with the idea until I read Living in the Light by Shakti Gawain. Gawain puts it a bit differently than Cady, saying that the inner knowing we all have in our gut is the voice of the Universe. Reading her words smacked me between the eyes. I finally got it.

Gawain writes that intuition never lies and is 100 percent accurate. It is not emotional. Feelings, our emotional responses, are not the same as intuition. I was like a Christmas tree, so many lightbulbs were coming on around me. I felt like someone had just given me the key to the Universe, and in a way, they had.

What about Meditation?

As I read and asked questions about getting closer to God, the practice of meditation kept coming up. This was not an answer I wanted to hear, because it seemed impossible to quiet my mind. People were also talking about God being within us, and this went right over my head. I had been raised to believe that God was in heaven, far, far away above the clouds.

I sat in a lotus position. I closed my eyes. I did the "om" thing. Nothing happened, other than my mind wandering to my grocery or chore list. I felt like a failure at meditation, so I minimized its value.

One day I got the inner nudge to call my friend Roy, who meditated daily. Could he explain the concept of Higher Self and teach me to meditate? Roy said that the Higher Self is the part of us that is God and that we meditate to communicate with this presence.

My mind jumped back to a class I'd attended at Unity. There I'd heard that there was a personal God and an impersonal God. The personal God resided inside us, while the impersonal God resided outside us and watched over the world. My mind grappled with these new ideas, and later that night, I asked God to help me understand them.

Meanwhile, I kept trying – and failing – to meditate. Then one day I had a breakthrough. I was running on a treadmill and for some reason grabbed onto the bars, closed my eyes, put my attention on my belly button, and asked God, "Are you in there?"

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